Dear Diary day 5 (playing catch up here!)

Lets talk about the fear of failure, missed opportunities and the unrealistic standards.

In my mind I've always had these day dreams of situations where I have succeeded, almost as if I would never actually be able to make it. It's as if my brain doesn't really think I can achieve these things so it make it up in my head.

I guess maybe this is a coping mechanism or it is my brain telling me I can achieve these things but I need to work for it. I want to work for it , there have been many times where I've started things but I have then quit because of fear of failure and over thinking of all the things that could go wrong.

WOW what a powerful quote! As my own thoughts are what have got me in trouble because there have been times where I've kept things in for so long, and then have just burst on people because I didn't know how to express my feelings then and there when things were said to me. Again it is that inner child of me wanting to look perfect at all times and never ruffle up feathers. However, I am human and I have feelings even though I choose to keep it in and express them once in a blue moon.

I need to really value my own mental health in being truthful to myself and valuing my feelings and needs more often. Instead of having that perfect composure and not making myself seem human instead resembling a robot. That's why I really do struggle with building emotional connections with people.

I'll keep this one nice and short, I think I'm on a roll here!

Here's a article on how to stop overthinking- https://theawarenesscentre.com/ten-ways-to-stop-overthinking/